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It’s been a tumultuous week for me both in my personal life and in my business life.  There are some sticky family situations happening around me and as fencing season slows down, my husband and I are left to wonder if he should stick it out through the winter or go get another job.  It’s not surprising to me that my life would get rocky right before publishing a Catholic book and yet it’s always still a little surprising.  

When you get ready to tell the world that giving your life to Jesus means you will have peace, you better believe God is going to test you a little on that front.  Sure it’s easy to be in love when things are easy, before the trials come.  I feel like my marriage has taken a big hit during this uncertain time as well.  And though my marriage is forever, it still catches me off-guard when we look at each other and think, “Man, I really don’t like you right now.”

6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God. 7 Then the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Philipians 4:6-7

I’ve been praying with these verses a lot lately.  It’s important to note that Jesus doesn’t say, “Try not to worry too much.”  He makes a bold and strong command, “Be anxious for nothing.”


I have been clinging to these words in the middle of this storm.  As I find my worries bubbling up and my chest start to tighten, I whisper to myself, “Be anxious for nothing.”

To be honest with you, it’s actually working.  Repeating these words to myself all throughout the day has actually helped me to let go of some of these worries.  None of my problems have been solved but the simplicity of these words help me understand that these Earthly issues are small compared to eternity.

Be anxious for nothing.

We are so scared of pain and heartbreak that we close our eyes, cover our ears and let the noise of the world drown out our thoughts so we don’t have to… feel anything.  We don’t want to feel pain and sadness.  

God did not promise us a world without pain and sadness, though.  He promises us peace within those storms.  I am trying to learn how to live with deep pain and still feel calm and peaceful.  I have to remind myself, at least fifty times a day, to be anxious for nothing and I feel as if my brain is slowly rewiring itself.  I’m starting to believe the words and to embrace the pain.

I am letting go and trusting the Lord that He sees goodness coming out of these trials.  We cannot know the plans God has for us or those around us, and so our best choice is to trust Him.  It’s hard when I’m sure the future will hold even more pain and I’m scared of this.  

I don’t want my heart to break or to watch the people I love hurt.  

I was looking at old videos of Rose around her first birthday.  How quickly I have forgotten what she was like just four years ago.  I instantly felt this tugging of my heart as I caught a glimpse of just how fast this life goes. Laid out before me, I could see that my life would continue screaming forward with many blessings and many more trials.

Be anxious for nothing.

God knows exactly where you are.  He has a plan for your life and for all the people around you.  We don’t get to know what those plans are but we do get to choose to have peace throughout them.  

If you are a chronic worrier, purpose to retrain your mind. You are not a slave to your thoughts.  You have the power to change them and to create new patterns of thinking.  As many of us head into the school year and the busy season of Fall, let us constantly have the phrase “be anxious for nothing” on our lips.  

Let us cultivate a spirit of peace and then pass that peace on to others.  

I am living in an incredibly stressful and emotional hurtful time and yet, I’m clinging to this idea of peace.  Without Jesus and His promise for peace, I would allow myself to drown in my sorrow and my worries.  I don’t share any of this because I want people to feel sorry for me.  Quite the contrary!  I feel as if I’m learning, for the first time, what it feels like to be truly free.  

I want you to experience this freedom too.  We are free when we finally surrender everything to God.  I remember reading once that farmers naturally have to rely on God because only God can change the weather.  I’m starting to feel more like a farmer realizing that all the changes I want to see in my life, can only come from Him.

When you finally relinquish control, you will find peace.  

Be anxious for nothing.  Say this to yourself today as the world tries to steal your peace.  You belong to Jesus and He has a plan for you.